The struggles and triumphs of being a Navy wife while still being a sane mother.


Saturday, January 28, 2012

A Sad Day!

I don't want to spend too long on this post because I am still grieving, I don't frankly care what anyone's feelings are on the matter, and I just don't want to talk about it anymore.  As I mentioned, we are moving to Washington, that is a 40+ hour drive.  After that move, we will be moving pretty soon again.  Nick will be deploy-able then or we could be overseas then.  We have come to the decision that if I want to go home for long extended periods of times, the cats do not work with our family anymore.  It is best for everyone involved.  Zoe, our 8 year old cat, does not handle change and does not like anyone but me.  Macie, our 4 year old cat, does better with people but still is pretty finicky.  I have cried all day today.  It was so hard giving them up, but it had to be done.  I gave them to a shelter.  I opted for this, because no one adopts adult cats.  I would rather our cats have a few good years with me then spend the majority of their life in a cage.  Take what you want from that statement, but it makes me happier and feel better that they did have a great life with me.  They are my babies, the only chance of there being other girls in this house.  Base housing in WA makes you go to animal housing, which I do not want to live by all the loud, poopy dogs.  I do love animals but this time in our life we cannot have them.  Moving too much with cats is not good.  I hate that it came to this, but it did.  I am heartbroken, so I cannot take criticism at this time.  I know that I made the right decision and the best decision, but it still hurts so much.  Post and Carry on with the rest of your day.    

Friday, January 27, 2012

The Newest Addiction!

So with much resistance, I finally jumped on the bandwagon.  The Pinterest Bandwagon, that is.  While it can be super addicting, I haven't found myself lost in it like others.  There are lots of cool things to do, make, cook, ideas, etc to look at.  But I guess I have too much on my plate right now, so if it isn't something to help me in the here and now, then I don't need it.  Maybe when my life calms down in a few months I will be living in the fantasy of cooking and crafting all of the time.  But for now I would like to stick with things I know that I will do or help me, not things that I know I would never do.  For instance, I have two separate folders for each of the boys' birthdays.  I figure that is really helpful right now.  I find things that I like and then save them so I can go back later and look through what I really want to do.  Now that part of pinterest is really helpful.  Although I feel like my computer has its own Pinterest set up.  I Google image everything and find what I want, then bookmark the webpage in separate folders depending on what it is for.  It sounds like I should have invented this website, Lord knows I love to be organized!  Up until now, anything I have ever done (craft, party, recipe) I have gotten from Google image.  The funny thing is, is most of the stuff I have done, I have now seen on Pinterest too.  Oh well, we shall see how it goes!  Post and Carry on with the rest of your day!     

Thursday, January 26, 2012

A Big Announcement!

Well after a month apart, Nick and I have decided that this is enough.  Nick is miserable living on a barge.  He has a bunk bed, and that is all of his personal space.  If he would have been in a hotel like we thought, I think he would be so much more happy.  But instead he just is awful, and I feel awful for making him be there.  So we have decided the best thing for us, if for me and the boys to move up to Washington.  Now I have no desire to live up there.  I have visited, and yes it is very pretty, I do not see myself living there.  Fortunately, it is for a short time, then the navy will be sending us somewhere else (please San Diego and not Japan!).  Nick and I love to drive around and explore, we do know how to make the best of it.  I feel like we have explored every square inch of NW FL and southern AL.  I know people that don't even leave the county here, much less the state.  We love to find hidden treasures and things to do.  We will be living on base housing and I am scared for that.  I have heard some horror stories, so I hope they are all false.  I did not have the best impression of base housing in FL, so I do hope it can be better.  I know our house will be small.  I know we will be cutting our square footage in at least half.  While I hate this, I can live with this.  I cannot live with a dirty place, moldy place, and everything else I have heard.  So Nick will be flying down here the first part of March to drive back to WA together.  We will drive to Dallas first, spend a few days and have Ashton's birthday party.  We will then drive to Denver and stay with his mom for a few days.  After that we still have around 20 hours so we will need a break then too.  It is over 40 hours of drive time!!  Did I mention we will be pulling a car behind our SUV?  Remember how much Ashton LOVES the car. . . not!!!  I will have the navy packers and movers come probably before Nick does and then they need 16 days to deliver.  I do not know the exact dates, but I hope they are wrong on 16 days.  We put in all the paper work for the move and housing, but have yet to hear anything.  Nick has been wanting me to come up there since pretty much he got there.  I did think we could make it work, but I guess not.  Apparently everyone else thought we would fail, which I don't think I like.  We do have our reasons for being separated, and they start and end with Caden.  He has three more doctor appointments before we move, if anything changes, I will not be moving.  I have stayed behind because of his health and I am sorry if people don't understand that.  Nick knows why we are still here and he understands.  Yes, we miss each other and are only moving together because we want to be together.  Anyways, I decided I could not do anymore after I threw my back out.  It was so much pain that all I could do was cry.  It was then that I realized I needed my husband's help.  I felt like God was hurting me to wake me up and get up to WA.  I have been praying for guidance and I feel like this was my wake up call.  I am sad to be leaving the place that I consider home.  We had our first real house here.  Caden pretty much has grown up here as well as Ashton being born here.  I love the friends I have made through church, especially Sarah.  She has really been the best friend to me I needed.  She has been here for me and I do not know if I will ever find a friend like her again.  We have so much in common it is scary.  I don't really want to find a friend like her, because I don't want to replace her, I just want her to move to CA!!!! (hint hint hint Sarah!!!)  I love that this is the first place that Nick and I agreed on a religion and a church that we both loved.  I love how involved I have become with that church.  I love that Caden loves going to church and school here.  I love how Ashton can socialize in the church, even though I think he cries through most of it! : )  I love how much we have explored here.  I love all the festivals we have been to here.  I love how much I hated it and still believe it is country, but am so sad to say goodbye to it.  I am pretty sure I could have made this two separate posts, but I am sure there will be another goodbye one.  I know I forgetting something important about the move or what I love, but I can't think through the tears.  Post and Carry on with the rest of your day.       

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

My Sleep Partner!

I have given up the sleep in your own bed battle.  I just let Caden fall asleep in my bed rather than him climbing in my bed in the middle of the night.  The other night after I stayed up way too late making baby shower crafts, I came into my room to this.  He snuck toys in my bed and I don't even know when he did that.  How he is sleeping, is a perfect example of my night and why I don't sleep.  He loves to snuggle and to be touching me, but he doesn't know how to sleep the right direction in bed!  I do love having him in my bed, though.  Post and Carry on with the rest of your day! 

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

All Boys!

I am absolutely thrilled to announce I will be an aunt again!!!!!!  My little sister is pregnant again, actually 17 weeks pregnant!!  She found out that she is having a BOY!!!!!  Coming from a family of only two girls, I cannot believe we both have two boys!!!  I know that I want one more and I am pretty sure Kelli will try until she has a girl.  So our small little family is going to be huge!!!!  Right now when the baby is born the boys ages will be newborn, 15 months, 22 months, 4 1/2 years old!!!!  It still blows my mind that I have two boys, I cannot believe my baby sister will too.  Family get togethers are going to be crazy and loud in a few years!!  She has the cutest name too, Hudson Michael.  I am so happy!!!  I hope that I will be able to see the little guy when he is still small.  It is going to be a whole other world having to buy plane tickets to go home instead of jumping in the car.  I am sure it will all work out though.  I love you Kelby and thanks for making me an aunt again!!!  Post and Carry on with the rest of your day!

Monday, January 23, 2012

Crafty Lady!

So I have been super busy with baby shower things for my cousin.  I am trying really hard to find new ideas and really cute things.  It is taking up so much time, which I love.  I am keeping myself busy at nights so I can't think about how sad or lonely I am.  I mean it still creeps in there, but not as bad as it could be.  So thank you, Casey, for getting pregnant to distract me! : )  These are half Styrofoam balls covered in crepe paper flowers.  I thought they were very crafty.  They were a little difficult to get the hang of, but now that I made up my own way of doing them, they are easy but time consuming.  I have many more crafty tricks up my sleeve, I can't wait to post shower pictures. . . there has to be some surprises for everyone.  I will say I am not used to pink and I am getting a little tired of pink!  Post and Carry on with the rest of your day!      

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Whose Pants??

I know I have entirely too much time on my hands!!  I thought it would be hilarious for some reason to put Ashton's pants on Caden.  I didn't really think it would work, but I should have known with my little shrimp!  Not only could he get them on, we could snap and zip them up too.  So if you have little girls, baby jeans make some pretty cute capris!  Post and Carry on with the rest of your day!